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Here it is 45 minutes to Sunday and the chapter isn't finished. I've been told not to worry about it, but I feel bad. I managed to get the chapters out even when I was sitting with my sister before she died. This will be the first deadline I'll have missed.
I was totally planning on writing for 3 or 4 hours before bed tonight and finishing the chapter up. Then it dawned on me what day it was. The birthday of someone who meant the world to me. That was it! I have been a basket case all evening! Everytime I even look at the document that contains the new chapter, I start crying.
I've been so unfocused all week. Maybe subconsciously I realized this and didn't want to acknowledge it? I don't know. All I know is that I stuffed myself full of cake and now I just want to crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head.
As much as I'd never want to give up the memories, why does it have to hurt so much? I can't handle any more tonight. Tomorrow is another day.
Sorry Kiku.
I was totally planning on writing for 3 or 4 hours before bed tonight and finishing the chapter up. Then it dawned on me what day it was. The birthday of someone who meant the world to me. That was it! I have been a basket case all evening! Everytime I even look at the document that contains the new chapter, I start crying.
I've been so unfocused all week. Maybe subconsciously I realized this and didn't want to acknowledge it? I don't know. All I know is that I stuffed myself full of cake and now I just want to crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head.
As much as I'd never want to give up the memories, why does it have to hurt so much? I can't handle any more tonight. Tomorrow is another day.
Sorry Kiku.
